Accountable: ac•count•a•ble: [uh-koun-tuh-buhl]
1. subject to the obligation to report, explain, or justify something; responsible; answerable.
This morning I had a light bulb moment about expectations and accountability. I realize that for too many years I’ve held myself accountable to people that I’ve owed no obligation, specifically when it comes to my actions. In March of this year I was promoted into a new position at work. I’ve been in training since then and will teach my first training class in a few days. I have been inundated with information to learn, organize, and prepare for facilitation. In addition to my full-time job I am also a full-time student. We are in the last two weeks of school so I am also preparing my final papers and research projects. To say that I’ve been overwhelmed the last two months is an understatement but I am happy that my career is moving in the right direction and I currently have a 3.0 in all of my classes.
So why are we talking about accountability? Because during this time I’ve been really busy and unable to socialize or return phone calls/texts the way I have previously. At work my head is buried in work related materials so I don’t have time to talk and text. When I get home my head is buried in school work. I’m not available at the drop of a dime or when someone else expects me to. For this I’ve noticed that some individuals have picked up an attitude towards me. This made me reflect on what obligation do I owe these individuals that makes me accountable for their expectations. I actually sat and thought hard on this. What I have found is nothing! To them I have no obligation to report, explain, or justify anything therefore I am not subject to their expectations.
To those individuals I pose this question, Why are you not busy? What are you spending your free time doing? and Whose expectations are you obligating yourself to? I can’t do that anymore. At this point in my life I am focused on advancing in my career, strengthening my background, and aligning my present to reflect my future. If that is not a category one finds themselves within is no longer my concern. I still have respect for those individuals but I can’t lose sleep over it. This is a part of my growth and development. I am fine if they are no longer interested in speaking to, calling, or texting me because of this.